I was reading back on some of my old posts. i used to get really deep on here about how i was feeling, maybe its time to do that again. This summer has come and gone so fast. It sucks to know a whole month was wasted in the hell hole i was living in before my new place. It also sucks to know this whole summer was wasted on being heart broken. Summer love? not here. Instead of getting out there and trying to move on I worked hours on end and filled the empty days with “projects” and the t.v. I guess i have grown bitter towards the thought of another relationship or even believing i could even let my guard down again for someone else to come on in and stomp all over my heart. Maybe i needed this summer to be alone and just focus on me but i don’t even think i did that, i just swept my feelings under the rug until i couldn’t hold it in anymore and then the emotional breakdowns arose. Besides being emotionally drained & heartbroken this summer a lot of positive things did happen too.

1. We moved into a new condo!

2. I adopted a kitten from the shelter, her name is Babushka aka boobie.

3. I got a raise at work!

4. I have grown closer to many of my sorority sisters.

5. I learned i can be alone.

6. I have let go of some of the grudges that i was holding on too.

7. I have picked up a few new recipes.

8. I spent some time with my family & best friends.

9. I got fitted for my bridesmaid dress for my brothers wedding.

10. I made a few road trips, San Fran & Santa Cruz 

So to sum it up this summer has been the most unusual summer i have ever had. But i guess everyday is a learning experience. I just hope this Fall Semester brings good people into my life, and maybe a good looking down to earth boyfriend material guy! (Pleaaaaasssee!)

well good night tumblr, feels good to express my feelings again. I guess im not afraid of it anymore.